So i am right now in the office listening to meditation music about letting go and trusting the universe.
I need to step into the postive vibrations instead of the negatives ones. I was asking why i am not getting certain things and i realised that i am not a patient person.
Everything takes time and everything has a place. I studied in Colombo ended up in Bangalore, came to London. met my friends after years. marriage. kids, life.. pain.. happiness.. people who came into my life .. people who left my life. so many by chance.
I need to truly let go and even embrace the pain i have. its also a part of me. Yes i have been crying every night as sometimes when one misses someone so much… when i have been so attached to you i cannot think of a life without them. We become so strongly attached to them. I have lived without them and will continue.
I have always asked God that if someone is not meant in my life that please take them away. I need to learn to trust God and the universe that what ever is happening is hapeening for a reason. i need to step into the air and feel light. Even my body feels tired and sore and very heavy.
I need to write what i want from the Universe.
i will feel loved and will give love.
I will lose weight and feel lighter/.
I will learn to embrace the pain and the heartache. I will continue to smile.
I will learn to let go.
I will learn to live without certain indivuuals in my life.
its all good what is happening. I need to let go of the chain. i need to let go of the ropes that is binding me around.
i want to feel light.. i want the love and the ambudnace of positive energy to sweep through me like a light radiating from the Gods.
I will feel cleansed. my soul will be pure. its like i have bathed in the holy water and have been reborn to start a new journey. a new life where i am just a new born baby who has stepped into the world.
The past shall be left behind and i will not use it to think about my future.
I wish to let go. My new exciting life awaits me. I will be provided with adundance of peace and happiness. I am seeing the lights all over me.. enveloping me with a hug.. i can smell the freshness around me.. the tingle around me.. its happening.. i am seeing myself on a cloud and its myself.. alone.. a smile.. freshness.. its a new day.